thanx slowly- youve always got your head screwed on well!
I think youre exactly right- my perspective can make or break me- me putting (or trying to put) a positive spin on things is what is getting me throug each day- sometimes my negative self talk gets in the way--- but i really need to keep focused and appreciate all the positives.
today we made an appointment for counselling- our session is on Friday--- Im really scared! I have this fear that the counsellor is going to say to H-'oh you cant seem to commit to making this marriage work...you need that, or theres no use!' well.... i think its something really necessary anyway... i just hope this lady is pro marriage saving! H says he is scared too- I asked what is he scared of and he just said' i dunno' i told him it is scary- & dont worry i scared too. we'll see eh!- if its a disater, I'll just change counsellors!
Unfortuantely H told me today he is not going to go on holiday we had planned & booked at the end of this week-- bummer... Im really disappointed- I thought getting away may help... but H feels preassured and uncomfortable (my parents will be there also) and he also has a massive fear of flying... so... oh well
Im not going to go either- Im really not interested in getting on a plane by myself and going on holiday..
bummer! what a waste of money! Oh well- i really dont want to force H into it- ive applied a bit pf preassure but it didnt work- so I'll jsut leave it now
I will however try to do something nice during my holidays- certainly dont want to mope around
