I'm glad I found you over here. Our situations are sooo similar. When I read your post, it was like reading what I have been thinking and going through. I too, am a total mess today, I posted it on the newcomers BB. I just don't know how much longer I can do this. The 180's and detaching have helped, We have been getting along better. When he doesn't know where I am he calls right away to fing me, with a lame reason why. Then I start to get excited and try to make things fix themselves faster and we are back to where we started from. I don't know how much lnger I can deal. Sometimes I wish he would just leave. Baby or no baby is another issue for us. And like you I have always wanted one, but now reconsidering if that's what I need to do to keep him. Anyway, Just wanted to let you know -I agree this is really hard amd really terrible. Hang in there- I'll tell myself the ame thing.
