Hi there - I'm sorry to hear you are feeling yucky, it will happen, and the only way is through it. I like your goals, the all seem very do-able. Will you post progress here?
Quote: this whole patience, giving him space idea etc is all very good in theory - but it doesnt feel very empowering really?
It sure feels that way doesn't it? But, over time, I did find that by me making the decision to get on with my own thing, and interacting with NG when we BOTH wanted to, it was actually quite liberating.
In terms of what is interesting versus what is boring, best may be to do what YOU want to do, and let the rest of it follow. Life is too short to posture, no? Take for example painting, I would love to be able to do this, and so admire folks who can paint. Have you ever shown your work? Artists have such a romantic air about them
