I've been married for 5 years now (I'm 24 he's 39) and since the begining of our marriage it seemed our sex life has become non existant unless I mention it, then we'll have sex a few times and it will be along time before it happens again. We have went through alot together. Living abroad in a country where no one hardly understood me put alot of stress on our marriage then dealing with infertility for 3 years (we finally have one child now). My husband and I got into a heated arguement today that turned very ugly( and i mean real ugly) and what was worst was I told him I hated him and wanted to divorce mostly because I have brought up our poor sex life over and over again and it never seems to get better. It has gotten so bad that when we argue I never ever reveal why I am angry because it's almost embarassing to me that I (the wife) have to ask or be rejected. I'm not saying sex is the only important thing in a relationship but I wished my husband found me that desirable to want to have sex with me. When he rejects me I feel like trash and even worst when I talk to other women it as if their husband can't keep their hands off them. And then I feel like the oddball or the ugly undesirable wife. I have even conte,plated taking anything known to decrease my sex drive. I figure if I'm not thinking about it, it won't hurt me. And maybe I can accept my marriage for what it is and just accept the good things like him being a good father and provider. Cheating is something I could never do. I'm not sure what to do. I feel like giving up on having THAT kind of marriage. Undesirable
