Jen ~feeling a bit down over this and not sure if this is the place I should be.
Please do not give up! There are some great advantages to being here. I know believe me I know at times it is hard because so few LD people are here to support each other. But there are HD people that are very supportive of even us LD people. The hardest part of being only one of the few LD people here is that you are always having to justify why you are LD. And like I said earlier it as if you are LD you need to fix yourself like you are the flawed component in a other wise working machine. Sometimes making people realize that either A. You do not see this as a flaw. Or B. the machine really was not working well to begin with and is the cause of your flaw can become really frustrating.
A few weeks back ago I went into a forum here and it was like a all out HD vs LD war. It read like you stupid bitch if you would just spread your legs for your H your life would not be so bad and your H would not be ready to leave you. Well hmmm it took everything in me to not jump in on that. And went on and on. But I left the room instead and came back to this forum and say enough I give up I am done. But all the wonderful people here changed my mind. Lou Gel Honey IHJ HD Lil all of them are HD and though they may not agree or totally understand me as a LD and sometimes they will bluntly (Yeah Gel that one is for you) tell me what a minute you should not do that. Or don't think you are being fair on that one. They all support me in there own way. And they have all helped me in some manor. And hey some of even the hardcore HDs can understand it alittle I do believe CeMar just validated and was being supportive of little ol LD me on another post I do believe.(love that guy). I came what 8 weeks ago so ready to walk out of my marriage yet feeling so trapped in it. Thanks to GEL and Honey and there bluntness I stood up to my H regaurding his abusive behavior towards me and my kids. He now takes C classes after 15 years of this. After reading HD post I saw a side of my H that he does not know how to express in words but it is like seeing into what my H is thinking at times. And Lil has a subtle way of making you look for answers within yourself that she never even asked. But for what your feeling right now MRS NOP told me not to long ago. To stay and fight the fight do not let ourselves get pushed around because we are LD stand up for ourselves Because LDs matter to. I have not thought of leaving this board since. I inject my thoughts and if someone brashly puts out there that a LD is a flawed person and the weakest link to there R I tell them hell no I wont except that prove it to me.
Oh long ramble getting late meds kicking in. Really just wanted to say don't go. you belong here just as much as the rest of us. And us other LD people could really use your support. And would like to get a chance to be supportive of you.
