I think Im losing my mind today. Its been 2 yrs since the affair my W had on me and a long road but things are still messy. Now we just dont have sex and havent since March or April. Its been so long I cant remember. Besides that its only been quickies in the shower so not very satisfiying. Ive talked with her about her rejecting my advances all the time and tried to understand but Im so freaking frustrated I cant take it. Its all the same excuses we hear about. Im tired. I just dont think about it. You bring it up all the time so now its a turn off. etc. Ive told her if we are going to have this roommate type marriage then I want out. Whats the point ya know? She had this affair on me for 10 mths w/ sex twice aweek co I dont think its a sex drive issue. I dont know anymore! Its hard not to bring it up when your not getting any. But with everyhting that has happened I find myself searching outside the marriage. I think Im ready to just say screw it and cheat. THat or throw in the towel and divorce her. AHHHHH...
