Hey Kim, thanks for the shoutout from CA (three times even! I feel special receiving multiple contacts from such a wonderful California girl!). Largo (great to hear from our world famous, gorgeous Floridian water sprite - how are you doing? Was it the ankle that was bothering you?). Koshka! or Superdad, I should say!

What a nice Monday pick-me-up to see your messages!

My PMA is great. Went back to my roots, very latenight runs to burn off any remnants of stress, some meditative prayer and thinking, and I slept like a babe this weekend.

Had to postpone my kayaking class this weekend til this Thursday. But it'll be a blast.

I've gone ~ dark on X. And she's starting to stir a bit. She called Sun night, and she stayed on the phone for 1 hr. It was purportedly about S5, but she sprinkled in lots about her own goings on, plans for the Fall, and interestingly she placed two statements in there about not dating. One came up when we talked about equal weekend nights off b/t us, with me telling her I thought it was only fair for her to have 2 Fri/Sat nights to go out, same as me. She responded, "I'm not dating, so it doesn't matter."

She brought up S5's welfare, and said that he comes home 'so very tired' from visits with me. I bit my tongue on that, cause he gets very solid care from me. I said, "Rest assured, X, that S5 goes to bed on time every time with me, gets the same quiet time transition to sleep that he did when we were together, with reading books and prayers, and some quiet convo. He plays hard w/me and I try to work in a good amt of physical activity, but this is healthy for him. Rest assured that he gets very solid parenting with me." She relaxed. And we visited more.

B/c I need her to cover his school transport later in the week while I'm out of town, I mentioned my kayaking trip. Didn't say with whom I'm going, just that I was. Her voice sounded very intrigued. When I mentioned that S5 and I have a 2-person kayak picked out for purchase when I return to the house, she protested re how dangerous kayaking can be. I merely noted that I'm pursuing certification classes, so that I can take him out with great confidence, that I'm not merely trying to cowboy it with our only loved child.

Anyway, a positive contact ~ 3 days after she takes my @ss to court. Sorry LostinLimbo, I know you wanted me to keep it friendly but brief with her. I will return to that flavor, as there is definitely some mystery going on.

K, I'm not so much deciding I'm "done" as I am convinced that I need to completely drop the rope and pursue my development full-force. If that includes dating OW, so be it.

Gabe

PS - Those interested in Vegas: I've posted some wkends in the 'Fun' forum. We should decide on a wkend soon.


God heals the broken-hearted (Psalm 147:3)

Me: 44
W: 40
Separated 8/2011

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