Thanks for posting, Bruce and Hope. Hope, good to hear from you! Hope all is well w/ you and the kids.
Kim, I have been allowing myself to express emotion regarding the sitch and you are so right about it being just part of the process. I'm reengaging in deeper exercises to help with this - revisiting the homework from Susan Anderson's The Journey from Abandonment to Healing and reading Don Miguel Ruiz' The Four Agreements. Going thru the 40 days of reading/meditation of The Purpose-Driven Life as well.
No contact from X and therefore S5 since Fri morn. I know he'll be okay, but its sad that she's not letting him talk to me to visit, and say our routine goodnight and bedtime prayers.
Went to Starbucks to get a decaf latte (lots of writing today, so I'm taking in a tad of caffeine). At the next table, two very attractive women - looked like 30-something divorcee's - were very obvious in checking me out and throwing out smiles/glances. I appreciated that, but was using the time for me. There will be plenty of time to play 'the game' latter, once I'm back in the house.
I really think X won't turn around to consider what she has lost until I've truly moved on. I also doubt whether she'll believe in my contentment with her until I actually do go out and experience other women.
