No, really Wes and UD, I hear you loud and clear. There is s/t threatening about going to court in 2 days to defend myself and trying to stay positive and light w/ her in person.
I'm having a terrible time acting 'as-if' right now. In part, cause of her BS, but also b/c of my growing ambivalence. I'm in great danger of joining her in the "Bitter Divorcee" club, but I don't want to be a member. I just read Renegade's successful reconciliation in the newbies forum, and deep down I still want her back.
UD, you are right to remind me about the high road. I think the key is to stay there, have fun when I'm alone, father S5 very well, and give her validation/strokes when its appropriate. You both are so right - she's not responding well to my battling her. I must have lost several dozen IQ pts since my trip out West. Plus, she's into this raring libido stage. Not all that pleasant when I'm living like a medieval monk. Actually, they probably had sex more often than me.
Had three compliments on my appearance today. These tropical colored shirts really 'pop' - I seem to be exploring the metrosexual category a bit. Leaving the office now to get my teeth whitened. This should be interesting...
