From what I can remember from reading your posts, this is the first time things have really went south for you since the D.
I think you started a small fire when you snooped, which you already know, but just keep DBing and don't do it again. Fires need fuel to keep burning, don't add any fuel it will eventually die out.
She is punishing you for reading her journal because she is embarrassed. (Any time I snooped and confronted my W, it made her mad, if it was about OM she would deny it or threaten to take me to court or get a RO)
Your W is contacting you because she still needs help from you, she over reacted by putting the RO on you. A few days from now she will wish that she didn't do the RO. Her anger is from her own frustration at this point, you may get yelled at just because you are alive.
I was just thinking about SNOOPING, what would I think if my W found this BB and read everything I have posted. Even though I have been very truthful, the good the bad and the ugly was posted. I would at the least be annoyed that she invaded my space, maybe even pissed. When I was in the snooping mode I never thought of it as invading her privacy, I knew it was against DB "law" but I did it anyway because I thought I needed to know this stuff so I could protect myself
I am not trying to beat you up over looking at her journal, thats behind us. I just know that in my case snooping added fuel to the fire, the fire would be almost out and I would confront her about something else I knew she was doing, then the whole forest would be on fire.
Two months ago while the forest was on fire with my R, I started putting my life in God's hands. I couldn't force the drug addicts and thugs out of my XW's life so I asked God for help. I didn't complain about them to her, I didn't try to scare her about what drugs can do, I just asked God to help. I am by no means out of the woods, but several things have happened to change my XW, no drugs for about 2 months, not even partying anymore, no more thugs coming to her house. ( I would call it a blessing from God I did nothing, absolutely nothing to change her mind except pray.
Gabe, I still see potential for DBing to work for you and your W. Put it in God's hands and DB. This means you have no control of what she will or will not do. She will have to learn some things on her own that may be painful for you to be aware of. (Todays pain may be so we can have next years glory)
