Thanks for your comments, JDD and K. JDD, I appreciate your calming perspective in light of this drama, and for reminding me of the time factor - hopefully, things will calm soon.
Quote: Most of my fears and worries were just that.
I hope my worries turn out the same, JDD. You amaze me with your patience, and I hope I live to see a similar turn in my sitch. K, I appreciate your realistic view of W's behavior, and will proceed with caution.
I awoke to a police officer banging on my studio door - actually was a nice guy. He handed me a RO filed by W and confirmed by a judge, with an impending court date on 8/11 to address it. It bars me from being 500 feet of my own house, 500 feet of her - including our mutual workplace - so in essence, I'm in misdemeanor violation for showing up to work right now, and bars me from any form of contact with her - beit over S5 or not. At transfer, I will have to stand 100 feet away from her and have him walk to her with his stuff (or leave it on a sidewalk for her to come get). Finally, she is requesting that I receive treatment for my unspecified problems. I wondered if she meant anger management, but I'm just not violent/aggressive/controlling etc...
It is really none of her business, but I think I posted that I started IC with a new female psychologist last week. It feels icky to think that she may link that to these recent moves of hers and may be informed about it. Very intrusive, if so.
The PO started to laugh when I mentioned that I was her landlord, that I wanted back into my house, and that she was living there out of convenience and willingly. He noted that she didn't tell the judge that, and asked why she didn't just move out. Very good question.
I'd like to think that it has to do with unresolved feelings and lingering, but I'm sure it has more to do with her self-centeredness - low rent, less hassle (1 move vs 2 to get into her condo in Oct). I'm losing about $500/month with her in there versus a stranger/tenant, but I've been hoping all along that it will eventually click with her that I did gift her with staying and that it was way inconvenient for me to be living out of my home for almost 1 year now w/in a small studio.
Quack quack. I'm letting it roll off my back. Just like water off a duck's back. I'm back into my game, and feel in balance.
