But you are not "divorced," at least in the way most people perceive or at least compared to me.
We have NO physical contact. She does NOT come into the house when I'm not here. I certainly do NOT have access to her house. We do NOT talk about anything R related.
I think you have an addiction. You want very much to separate yourself from her in your mind. But when you are physically away from her and do not see her, as soon as you return, you make contact and intiate physical contact. I noticed when you were able to see her frequently (everyday) the physical need was not as great. But after being away, you had a need to physically be in contact with her.
I am quite sure she does NOT perceive you as garbage. She perceives you as Wes, the guy who will always be around for her.
