I guess the one or two things screaming out at me and no one is asking, why is she using the computer (and please don't make excuses for her) and WHY are you snooping?
I doubt it makes you feel any better? And I doubt reading her email is really going to help you understand her mind set.
And shame on you for snooping! What kind of example are you setting for the rest of us???? (I admit it, I peeked at his email this morning. Just who they were from. I didn't actually look at any, and he left it open on the computer!)
When she comes by the house (you know when she lets herself in with the garage door opener) she'll use my computer, especially if I'm gone for a while and she's checking in on the dog. I don't have to make excuses for her I guess, she's had pretty much free reign of the house. As to why I even bother snooping...who knows. Stupidity, curiosity, urge to see if she's found anyone else yet, see if she has anything positive whatsoever to say about me. Perhaps a hint of what I could do right or what I'm doing wrong. All of the above.
No, I can't say that I've ever read anything that made me feel better.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
The pressure is on. I'm being asked whether I'm doing any working on goals or if I'm just keeping busy snooping. Reading Bruce's post and the advice from Michelle here's a list of headway I've attempted/made.
So addressing my previous goals:
1) I've started making headway in the book. This financial guy I was seeing about my kids' college funds gave me a suggestion and I went with it. I really got into it because I was writing what I know.
2) Funded more into my kids' college funds (and none for XWs kids )
3) Got enrolled in a creative writing class through the university. Haven't got the course material yet (it's a correspondence course)
4) Started looking at possible CE courses for work. Was considering Boston in the fall, but somewhere warm sounds better. Bought two new work related books.
5) Joined a volleyball team for fall/winter league. Still need more practice. I got rusty in the fifteen years I didn't play.
6) Haven't made it to the gym in months (5 or so). Need to get back, but not sure how high a priority this is. I do need to get in better shape.
7) Have focused on having quality time with the kids. Built a game of Norwegian horseshoes to play together.
8) Went out a time or two with some girls from work including last night. Very fun
9) Put a fair amount of my XWs stuff in the empty room downstairs (she noticed, but didn't mention it until I asked if she was going to take some of it)
10) Changed comforter and rest of bedding from what we had when married which is nice because it's another thing not to have as a reminder
11) Have not taken the scuba class I wanted to yet, but I'll get to it if I have time.
That's what I'm doing so far. None of these listed are for XW. I've read through some relationship books and step-parenting books, but I'm on hold with her. I won't discourage friendship with her if she initiates things, but I want to keep busy with my own stuff. Mainly I want to get at least an hour's worth of writing done per day. I started doing some of this writing when things get slow at work and I find that helps.
Gotta go. Off to Rosebud SD today. I'll write more later.
Have a good day everyone.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
I do have a fire lit under me. Guess what? Some a-hole cop was parked on the runway where we needed to land. We passed over at like 50 feet 5 or 6 times so he couldn't help but know we wanted to land there. I cost the business some money (which hopefully can just get written off), but I finally told the pilot to just fly home. The beauty of the trip was I brought my laptop and worked on my book. Got some really good stuff written (in my opinion). I was incorporating some of this stuff that we deal with daily so it came pretty natural. Now I'm really stoked about the book. My long term goal in this regard is to average 2 pages a day and finish by the end of the year. What's that, about 300 pages? I'm kicking myself now for putting this on hold for so long, but I was stuck and didn't have the willpower to push through it.
Bruce, do you mind if I use your previous poem in my book?
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
It's a secret my dear. You'll just have to read it later.
It's kind of a modern fantasy, mystery, drama with some CSI like stuff thrown in for good measure. It's kind of a Gandalf meets Quincy, M.D. he he. Mainly fantasy, but I decide that the wife of one of the main characters left him. So I wrote some DB stuff today about GAL, etc.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
Just who they were from. I didn't actually look at any, and he left it open on the computer!) 
As to why I even bother snooping...who knows. Stupidity, curiosity, urge to see if she's found anyone else yet, see if she has anything positive whatsoever to say about me. Perhaps a hint of what I could do right or what I'm doing wrong. All of the above.