No updates for today. I haven't seen or spoken with my X since immediately after the movie on Saturday. That's pretty much a record for me. She's still in my thoughts too much of the time, but I need this to do my own thing and get to a position where I have truly faced the reality that we are through. Hope is all well and good, but I think for most of us it can only end in heartache.
I visited the "surviving the big D" forum yesterday. The thinking is definitely different. Some realize that things are better without their Xs and some that it was hopeless. And there is a fair amount of bitterness. Some were "I don't want to burst this poor newbies bubble, but it's over and he just isn't ready to accept it." Scarey, but probably true for quite a few of us.
Sorry I'm such a downer today. More pessimistic than optimistic I guess.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
