jak,

I think getting your stuff is fine. It really doesn't matter as far as the R goes.

I agree w TJ about your e-mails to W. They do seem depressing and pressuring but I think you got that now. As weird as it seems, the worst thing you can show W that you are sad and lonely and angry.

I do think backing off is a great idea...especially to give yourself time to collect yourself.

That reminds me of a story I read on this BB. I don't know where, but I'll try to give you a brief synopsis.

It's about a spoiled, selfish child that badly misbehaves (WAS'). This child goes on and on and on displaying his bad behavior and the parents (LBS') keep yelling at him and punishing him. He continues because he gets attention, albeit not good attention. One day the parents get fed up and walk away and ignore the child. The child does not turn away from them...he comes running back, crying and screaming for attention, promising to be good. Get the idea?

When/if W contacts you after going dim (I wouldn't recommend total darkness, because you have a good rapport w W), just say how you've been meaning to contact her but you've just been so gosh darn busy GAL (fill in blanks w GAL activities). BE happy and glowing. If you can't fake that, you better go do something that makes you happy!

Take care, LR