I would stop with the emails for the time being. I use to do that with XH, but after many, many unreturned ones, I stopped. I can only assume he was seeing it as another way of me putting presure on him.
I know what you're going through is hard, but it does get better. Even though XH and I are back together and working things out, once not that long ago, I was where you were at, except I didn't know about this place.
Just because you're moving on with your life with out you W doesn't mean you're giving up hope of a R one day. It means you're doing what you need to do to have a life again. That's the most important thing here. I think most of us while in a R became too much of that other person, it's not healthy. Now we need to get healthy and become ourself. You can do it.
