A quick update to say I'm still pregnant, feeling great (except for a head cold), and no sign yet that the baby is coming at any moment, though the due date is fast approaching.
Things at home are rocky, but we've had some good moments of closeness. Our big news is, S. was offered his job back (he quit 2 years ago to pursue personal projects and has been freelancing for them 2 days a week ever since) and has decided to go back full-time for a while to build financial reserves. It's a change - I was expecting him to be home with me so I'm able to start working again in January (part-time from home), but it looks like I'm going to be more reliant on him to support me, and he seems to be OK with that. I'm still anxious about it, mostly for reasons like wanting emotional (and physical) support from him, but also because I'm going to need my own money, but we will certainly talk about getting some help for me a few hours a day if I decide I really need to get back to work.
I'm concerned that he is going to blame me for having to go back to work, because he did quit to pursue his dreams of a more artistic life, but I just have to take it as it comes and try to stay on the path. His problems seem to all be my fault these days, and I'm dodging the blame as I can, validating when I can, and occasionally breaking down into a sobbing mess, but hey... I'm pregnant! I'm allowed to do that.
In other news, we're going to get a new car this weekend, which is exciting, along with a carseat for Little One. My work is winding down (after this weekend), and so I will be able to concentrate on unpacking, organizing, and getting ready for my mom, who comes Wednesday, my dad, who will come when we call to say it's time, and the baby, who will come when she deems fit.
I'm so excited, nervous, everything else... and ready for motherhood. It's going to be the most amazing thing, ever.
