I just wanted to thank you so much for all the valuable input. I am still working 7 days a week, and so my ability to keep up with all of you is severely hampered (hey, hampered rhymes with Pampers!). I just wanted to say thank you for putting up with my take-take at the moment and coming to my aid when I need you.
Thanks, Ellie - you're right. I need to Act As If a LOT better than I'm doing. And Koshka, you remind me that even if what you say is wishful thinking, I can certainly Act As If the R is strong under the superficial tensions.
Unfortunately, one of our biggest tools is missing at the moment (I hope it's just fot the moment - otherwise, I'll go nuts). S. is looking at me as very pregnant / almost Mom now, and the ML fairy cow has, sadly, left this dairy farm. ML used to be a way for us to connect, and even when things were bad, ML was very intimate and soothing for us. Now, we don't have that, much to my chagrin. It's been a struggle. I bring this here not to give you TMI, but to add another dimension to what is going on. I suppose we need to come up with new ways to be intimate, and to his credit, S. has been using the labor massage techniques we are learning in childbirth education class to give me some nice touch when we tuck in for the night. Of course, I shower the gold stars. But I feel that our intimacy nevertheless has waned considerably, and it's been hard to cope without the ML tool in our belt (not to mention, it's downright frustrating for me, because I'm still feeling quite frisky and it's hard not to take his disinterest personally). We've talked about it, and he feels it's "not appropriate for him right now," and yes, he knows it doesn't harm the baby, etc., but he just isn't feeling it. Sigh.
OK, enough about that. I need to get back to work. I worked all weekend and sent off 64 reading passages this morning at 7:30. Yikes. It's going to taper off soon, I keep telling myself. It's going to taper off soon.
