*huge hugs* I have no advice for you today, but I know how you feel. And yes, you can only give so much without getting it back. But that's also where you can change how you see things. No, you're not getting what you want, but he is giving. I'm guessing PT is your main LL. Mine too. And it sucks that it's the one thing we can't get. But look at the other ways he shows he cares. It doesn't make that need go away but it does help to show us that they care. (yes, I'm saying this to you for my own good too!) Hang in there my friend.