Just once...JUST ONCE!! I wish H would come to me b4 walking out the door and offer a hug or a kiss. Today, he Im in kitchen and he walks by and says, I have to get going and walks out the door. ONCE EXTRA SECOND is all it would take for a small kiss or hug!! I didnt even say good-bye..I was to frustrated with him. I sent him an ecard this morning, just saying I wanted to be first to say good morning to him and that I loved him. He read it when he woke up. But nothing about thanks for it or anything. Maybe Im expectin too much..who knows.
But its when I am feeling anxious or insecure in our M that I start to want to much. Why, you might ask am I feelin anxious? Well, H invited OW's sister and fiance to our party this weekend. Now to the already added stress, I have to deal with OW sister being here?? It just makes me want more reassurance from H that we are ok. And him walking out door w/ out a hug or kiss is not helping!
Ok, Im just being stupid here....blah, blah, blah.....
On a lighter note....yesterday afternoon, I had only one family left, little boy 2 and his sister 6 months. I went in to wake up sister and brother came in too. Well, we ended up laying on extra bed in there and H came in and layed down with us...it was kind of nice...I wanted to say something like, "see, we could do this" ...but I was afraid to...I should have just to see what his reaction would be. I wonder if he was thinkig the same thing?? He treats that little boy, like he was "ours" he thinks he is the best thing in the world! That is why I think he would make such a great father!! If only he would give himself the chance!!
I didnt even say good-bye..I was to frustrated with him. I sent him an ecard this morning, just saying I wanted to be first to say good morning to him and that I loved him. He read it when he woke up. But nothing about thanks for it or anything. Maybe Im expectin too much..who knows. 
