Thanks Hope for checking in on me...I just been trying to find the time to post..

Journaling:

Thursday night we went to eat and look at cars. We had a nice enjoyable time. One positive that sticks out here...I always comment on how I would rather sit in booth than high table top, due to me being short and its just not comfortable, well, the past couple times, H has picked booth to sit in when we go out to eat. When looking for cars, he would ask my opinion and I would give it, but I also made a point to tell him I trust him in helping me pick out a good car, because I know he is good at doing comparisons and knowing what is good and what is not. (Trying to build up the ego... ) Friday night, we went to look for cars again...he has been so good at helping me and also being patient with me. I suggested when we got home that we watch a movie together, but he said he was going to play poker w/ friend online. I said, ok, then I will find something else to do and he said, You know, you can watch a movie w/ out me..and I replied, Oh, I know I can, but if I am going to sit and watch a movie, I would rather do it with you so that we can spend time together, but if you dont want to watch a movie, believe me, I have plenty of other stuff to do. So, I wanted to make sure he knew I CAN do things w/ out him, I just choose to save those things to do WITH him.

When we were laying in bed that night, I asked him to rub my arm...well, he does it so that it tickles me...not sure if its done on purpose or if Im just sensitive..anyways, it was kind of funny...then I said, you can do it on my leg, I am not as ticklish there and so he did...it was nice.

Saturday, we got LOTS, (well, I should say H did LOTS around the house to help me clean) done, because we are having party here next weekend and also that night we were going to Rockies game with his buddies. Yea, I know...I dont know why I put myself in that position, but I did. These are his "single" buddies. I do get along w/ them, but sometimes, they are so harsh and crude..not to me, but to other people. They are such bachelors and them come to our house and just "do whatever they want, eat whatever they want" and H always ends up paying for EVERYTHING!! He is just too dang nice!! Anways, we had pretty good time at the game, H was a lot shorter w/ me than he is when we are alone..he always acts different around his buddies than when we are alone. It kind of aggravates me, but I am learning, that is just how he is and realize that he COULD be that way all the time, but he is not. So, it was pretty good nite, once I decided to just loosen up and "let H be H". We got home, ordered pizza, (of course buddies didnt pay a thing and also didnt pay us for the tickets or beers H bought at game). I went to bed and H followed soon behind.

Sunday we looked at cars again. Cant wait to find one..think its putting extra stress on H! Then after supper last night, I ran bath for H and we watched movie. Was nice...he also rubbed my hand a bit too!!

Im little anxious to see how party is going to be this weekend. H used to "ignore" me the whole time, just hope its not all like that. Plus he's little upset (so am I) some of our friends that used to come to EVERY party we had last couple summers, are not coming. The are kind of bumming us out lately and its a little frustrating. But will just have to let that go, because we have other friends that we have met recently that we know we will have a good time with!