So, Im having a tough day. Probably due to the fact that H and didn not sleep in same bed last night. THEN add to the fact that I went to him and said, "H, would it be okay if when I wake up and you are not in bed, that I come wake you up to come back to bed?" WRONG IDEA!! He said, "no, I am alseep after not being able to sleep. You just need to let me do what I need to do" UGH!! Make all kinds of bad thoughts enter my mind. Was he thinking of OW?? Did he plan on sleeping in other room all along after he got home from playing poker? He did go into that room and turn on the light...am I thinking too much into it? Maybe, maybe not???? I just dont know. Plus we ML last nite..so then for him to not even sleep in same bed as me....really brought back thoughts of OW...he would do that when he was having EA. ML with me and then go sleep in other room and text OW!! YUCK!

Later I went back and said to him, "you are right, I am sorry for suggesting I wake you up. I was just being selfish. You need to do what you can so that you can sleep. If I can't sleep when you are not in bed, then that is my problem, not yours and I need to deal with it."

He has just seemed *distant* all week. I think it might have to do with the fact that he has been sick all week AND he has only worked 3 jobs all week!! That just means that he has been home A LOT, so I find myself leaning on him to help me out then. Plus, doesnt give us much time apart when we are both home together all day!! I HATE weeks like this. Plus he always stresses about money, so when he doesnt work much, Im sure that thought is entering his mind!

Anyways, Im probably just overreacting to a lot of different things and also because I am tired....I just needed to come here though and get some thoughts out of my head.

H and I are going out for supper tonite and then going to look at cars, so hopefully we can enjoy our night together.