Last night, H couldnt sleep, so he went to work on computer for a while. I was unable to sleep either, but I just layed in bed until I eventually did, probably around 12am. I woke up again at 4:30 and H was not in bed. I knew he had gone to sleep in other bedroom. Then I couldnt get back to sleep. I HATE when he does that, BECAUSE for 7-8 months of the past year, when he was having EA, he slept in the other bedroom. I know he does not think about that when he goes to sleep in there, he does it because he thinks he is keeping me up. But he is wrong, I sleep fine when he is in bed watching TV and I am sleeping, but its when I wake up and hes NOT in our bed and in the other room that I cant sleep because all nasty thoughts go through my head...I get angry, sad, frustrated..and then I lay awake for hours. This morning, I feel asleep about 5:50 and my alarm went off at 6am. How can I get him to understand that its hard for me when he sleeps in there, w/out making him feel guilty or think about when he used to sleep in there?
I know, piddally little stuff...but now today..I will be grumpy, sad and TIRED!!!
