Well, I think its time to post some goals and get back to writing down some positives each day. That really seemed to help me before!
Goals:
1. I want H to initiate a hug or kiss at ANYTIME!
2. I want H and I to go away for our anniversary.
3. I want to be able to express myself to H and not be afraid.
4. I want to be able to ask for what I need w/out being afraid H will freak out.
Positives:
1. H called me couple times when playing poker last night. (He NEVER used to call me when he was out doing something)
2. When H called to say when he was leaving I told him I was going to wait up for him and he asked why, I said because I want to see you when you get home. He seemed surprised with that..I usually go to bed early.
3. H rubbed my leg while in bed!!!
I think I "bothered" H too much this morning. He is not a morning person and usually gets up, goes to computer room to do his sports stuff. I know that this is his time he needs to be alone, but I was in such a good mood, I kept going in and talking to him. One time he snapped at me. I just walked out then. I KNEW I had done too much. Then when he got ready to leave for work, he just walked by me and said, "Im leaving" and walked out the door. I didnt not chase after him for a hug or kiss...I could tell his mood was not good. It was probably not all me though, it was early and he knew what he had to go do was goign to be a pain in the a$$!
But just ONCE..I would like him to come to me, say goodbye and give me a kiss on the cheek or lips. Is that really too much to ask for ?? Are we in a good enough place for me to ask him for this?
I am reading a book called "Marriage Fitness" by Mort Fertel. It is an AWESOME book. It talks about making your M about being in love. That you CAN decide to love someone and that is the most important thing you can do to keep you marriage strong. I cant wait to get more into the exercises...maybe I will post them on here too! I do recommend this book to anyone on these boards!
-2much
Here's to becoming postive and looking toward the future!
Whatever is important to you is what connects with you. Prioritize your spouse and you’ll have a soul mate. Prioritize something else and you’ll be married to it.
-Mort Fertel, Author of MARRIAGE FITNESS
