Thanks Phoenix_spark! I hope that by coming back here...it will let people know that there really is hope and that this really does work, but it is definately the most trying and patient time of MY life!!

H and I had wonderful weekend! We spent all Saturday in Denver..first time since we moved here 4 years ago!! Was a whole lot of fun, except for the part of me getting lost in Denver and driving around for 1.5 hours trying to find where H was!!! UUGGHH!! NEVER AGAIN!!

H played in poker tournament and then we went and hung out in ESPN Zone and ate, then moved on to Comedy Club...and we laughed SO hard, my side hurt the next day!

H was so patience and sweet to me that day. Especially when I was lost...he could tell I was frustrated, but kept his cool with me trying to help me find my way.

While we were eating, I tried rubbing H arm, because I KNOW he loves that, but he said, "please dont". Instead of overreacting and thinking it was about something else, I just said, "Im sorry, I thought you liked that" and he said, "I do, just not here". Ok..so now I know...H does not like public displays of affection. He has never come out and told me that...I guess all those times I did, he just was being nice and not telling me, while probable being uncomfortable all the time. So, I am glad he told me..good to know!

I am still struggling with wondering when I will get things that I need. I think that my main LL are Physical Touch and Quality Time. I am getting the Quality Time from H and it is absolutely wonderful. Actually our time together is much more "quality" that it has been since we got married 3 years ago!! We actually have conversations and talk about each others lives and dreams, etc. I LOVE IT!!

But....I still need the physical touch. I KNOW that PT is my LL because any little touch from my H, makes my heart soar! Crazy?? Yea, probably...but when I get nothing!!!

I so long for a long lip locking kiss or even a simple kiss...I get them when we are ML, but that is it. He NEVER kisses me, not even on the cheek. I kiss him on the cheek when he's leaving, because he turns his head, so I cant kiss his lips. WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT!!!!!????????

Last nite in bed, before going to sleep, I even tried a different approach...I said to him..."how about a big ol' smooch goodnite?" NOPE...he turned his head so lips were in blanket, so I had to kiss his cheek. I turned and cried...just a little bit..but it hurt. I even once tried telling him that he has such soft lips and I love kissing them. (This was after ML) But thought he might like the compliment and maybe kiss me. But no...

So, are we in a good enough place that I can talk to H about this? Should I take the LL test and then show it to him?? Or do I just be patient like I have with everything else? But it gets so frustrating sometimes. I do sooo, sooo, sooo much for my H. And yes, he does do lots for me too..lots more than he did before....like cleaning the house, running errands, fixing things...but as much as I love that he does all those things, all I really want is a kiss...