BB, KDU, Anna, Kismet - Thanks for dropping by.... needed some encouragement and support in my NEW status....
I have a few nice positive interactions with H today. H IM-ed a few times. He was setting up IM on his mobile devices and was testing it out. I know it sounds silly, but I am glad that he "ping" me to test out the service instead of OW. Told him something about S8, and he typed "you are making me laugh". So, it's good!
Also, I don't know if this is a sign from above? My big boss just came by not long ago and asked me would I have a problem if I need to be relocated? I was like "Ahem.. yeah, but it really depends on the country". ANd he said "Country X, Country Y and Country Z". In my heart was like "Country X????" Also, I have a few projects that would require me to fly to Country X, even if it's not a permanent relocation. I am feeling kinda excited and hopeful.... I did text H to tell him that Big Boss asked me about the relocation...He hasn't replied yet....Oh well.
Okay H texted "Where is your boss suggesting you relocate to??" which I did not reply. I went off from my desk and when I came back, there was another text from H "Called but no answer. Nothing. Just wanted to ask u which country is your boss planning to relocate you! Somewhere nice I hope...bye". I texted back "He said Country X, Country Y and Country Z. I was like er...er... depends on which country. I can't exactly tell him an outright NO. I have to think about my boys". Immediately, H called me. Our convo: H: Which country? Don't tell him NO first. Ask him which country. Maybe you should ask for Country Z. Who knows...I may also work in Country Z one of these days. Hee Hee..sort myself out first, is it? Me: Yes, sort yourself out first then we talk. Besides, I need to think about the boys. The boys need at least one sane parent. H: Okay! Okay! Talk to you another time. Was booted out of my IM...need to get PC first to download the application. Blah blah blah. Me: Okay. Bye.
So,....what is he thinking? Stupid @sshole!!!! He's trying to get me shipped off to some faraway country?? He didn't even mention the possibility of me being relocated to Country X. What an @sshole. That means he is still soooooo unsure about us. *sigh* I am going to pray day and night that he will see the light of the day that almighty is saying "hey...your wife can move to Country X...she will still have a job...all is not lost".....
Hi Yoyo. That must have been a message from up above to get news about relocating. I know you wanted H to jump on having you go to Country X to be where he is, but give him awhile to adjust to his new surroundings and I'm sure he will want you to be there too...that is if you have time to mull over the offer of relocating. Like the others say, things well get better since H is out of the home. No more worries if H is with OW and no more DRAMA At least you two are communicating via IM's, which is good. It's almost like dating all over again when you two couldn't see each other 24/7. This is the time to be as you were in the beginning girlfiend Yoyo, and no so much as wife/mother Yoyo.
M:43 H:37 D14 (ours) D18 (mine) S22 (mine) S18 (his) S: 10/2004 Bomb: 2/15/05 In/out of home Living with OW #4 Talks of D for 2-1/2 years
KDK - Yes, perhaps I need to give him some time to settle down in his new surroundings. Then he will ponder what he wants to do. At the moment, things are kinda hectic for him...finding a more permanent place to stay, etc etc. Until things are settled down, I don't think he will be able to think about LIFE with us or with OW or whatever.
I was thinking ....if H decides to go the other way, and ask OW to go to Country X and she does....Mmmmm she MUST really love him to give up her BMW and her high-paying job to go and be with him.... Well, then really good for him. Alternatively, she could do the weekend hop to Country X to have her rendevous with H. Or H doing the weekend hop back here to meet her. I know...I know ..stop wasting energy on OW and H. Concentrate on myself... Yes yes...I will try.
Nothing much to journal since my last post as I didn't have any real contact with H. Called him last night but he didn't answer. He called back later, but was in a mall and was going "It's really noisy here. What? Can't hear you. Call you tmrw"...
Yoyo Gal and goal set stop spending time on something you can't control my love....Maybe tell your boss if that opportunity came up you would definately consider it and that way your boss knows your interested but it gives some time for your H to work himself out and you too....KDU
KDU - Yes, yes... I know that I need to give H his time to sort himself out. I know that I cannot control him and only myself. Although, I do ponder about us occasionally, by all means, I am not sitting at home and being miserable. No..siree...
Journalling... Nothing much has happened since my last post. Went out dinner with some girlfriends on Friday night. Went to this new swanky place. Have to say the loo looks really exotic and rustic and all. Felt good and looked good (except the dent in my pocket ....
H didn't call on Friday night, just text to say that he will call to talk to boys the next day. He did call twice on Sat. First to ask what time I am leaving for my office do, and second to talk to the boys. At the company do, alot of ppl were asking where my H was. Had to tell them that he's in Country X. Tried to keep my answers to a minimal. However, one of the bosses did probe further, and I had to tell him that H is now based in Country X. I don't know this piece of news will get back to my big boss (the one that asked about how I feel if I were to be relocated). Funny.... I have a major meeting on Tuesday morning to discuss the project in Country X. My co-workers in Country X has been requesting me to assist them in some work over there... MMMMmmmm
Today (Sun), he hasn't called, and I have refrained from texting and calling him since Friday night....I am kinda proud of myself for giving him HIS time and space. Am going to a friend's house for dinner tonight. Boys will enjoy it.
I think I need to re-read DR and see how I can DBING better with H living across the seas.
Quote: Went to this new swanky place. Have to say the loo looks really exotic and rustic and all. Felt good and looked good
I always think you can tell a lot about places by their loos.
Yoyo, I think sometimes the universe offers us things that are blessings in disguise. Maybe that is what the offers to all the countries are. Maybe you could sit down and look at the pros and cons of each country with all the possible situations. I know that when I feel out of control (which I do a lot lately ), it sometimes helps to clarify what I really want when I write it all down. Then leave yourself open to the situation and see what eventuates.
Great DBing giving him his space and GAL. I am sure he is thinking of you and the boys.Hope you all enjoyed dinner
Kismet - well, he did send me an email saying "It's hard being alone here. Am missing everyone". Well, I guessed the everyone includes OW. When I read it...I was thinking "Good for you! He he he...you brought it onto yourself".
Journalling.. Sunday... H called at about 7 pm. I asked S8 "Do you want to speak to daddy?" and I got a NO, and then I turned to S5 "Do you want to speak to daddy?" and I got another NO. Then my friend's son (also 8) said "I'll speak to him!" SO, instead of H speaking to his sons, he spoke to my friend's son. LOL....
Today, H texted me a couple of times and sent me a test email from his new account.
Anna - Not too sure if he is really pinning for me...probably just lonely over in Country X (yes...will continue to say Country X since it is much more mysterious and interesting than Indonesia ! ) H did call me last night to tell me that he has arrived in Country Y (to add more to the mystery...ha ha ha) and I said "okay!". He called me again later and said that he had check-in, and would I like to call him at the hotel. I said "Err..okay" and did call him. We talked abit. He sounded alittle depressed...but I didn't ask him why nor make any signs that I am aware of his sad tone of voice. H: If anything happens to us, do you mean that we can't talk like this anymore? Me: Yeah, of course not. Besides, why would you want to? (He's hoping that things would be the same after he goes to OW???? I think NOT!) Then H proceeded to ask about the boys (what could I tell him? Other than the boys are fine?), and then told me about the houses that he went to see... H: Went to see some houses...wow..with big pools and roman columns blah blah blah. Me: Wouldn't that be like over the budget? H: Yeah..a bit over the budget. But it's not a budget problem. It's just that they want the rental to be paid 2-years in full. Me: Wow.. H: Yeah...and my company would only pay 1-year in full and not two years. Me: What about apartments? H: Havent' seen any. Me: Payment for 1 year? H: Yeah...I guessed. Me: Then I supposed you should look at apartments. Stay somewhere close to your office, so that you don't have to travel far...with the traffic jams and all. H: Yeah..I guessed (sounding rather dejected) Then he talked about all the ppl in his work place blah blah blah...
I kept the conversation AS-IF I am a helpful friend. No R talks. No future talks.. Just light... Did give him a text before I went to bed to wish him to have a good meeting and that I would send him some photos of the boys.
At least you two are communicating via IM's, which is good. It's almost like dating all over again when you two couldn't see each other 24/7. This is the time to be as you were in the beginning girlfiend Yoyo, and no so much as wife/mother Yoyo. 
), it sometimes helps to clarify what I really want when I write it all down. Then leave yourself open to the situation and see what eventuates.