Feeling a little shitty after my telecon with my MIL. H had lunch with her and apparently he is still very confused about us. H told her that he would be better than his father (who also left the family) by providing $$ for his kids, whereby his own father did not. Apparently, H also told my MIL that I am very strong and steady. And H also denied that I was very HURT by it all when my MIL brought it up that he had hurt me sooo much. Does that mean that he FEELS that he can leave me since I am sooooo independent and strong??? Also, MIL told me just before she ended the call "well, just be prepared". Gosh, what does that mean ???? Did he say something to her that indicated that he is going the other way?

I think I must stop listening to everybody and just to myself. Just keep quiet. Not have any external factors affect me. I really have to gooooo far far away with my mind. Really detach from it all. *sigh* Does "believe none of what you hear, and 50% of what you see" applicable here? Do you think what he tells his mom is nonsense at this point in time too? Shucks! Actually, it was I who kept on reminding him to call his mother. Geez...I am driving myself crazy. I just hope this will all end after he leaves next Wednesday. Then I go on a different set of roller coaster.

One Day at A TIME!!!
Keep Calm! Breathe!
STOP making myself Crazy! Think HAPPY Thoughts!!