KDK/hellkat/Kim - Thanks for dropping by and be a shoulder for me to lean on. I don't want to believe or not believe him. At that time, tears did flow freely. But when I am alone, I don't really want to think/dwell on it. It's not gonna do me any good. I think a lot of things are beyond my control (with regards to H). I can't stop him from saying all those things. I just have to NOT let it affect me too much. I guessed I have to follow the saying "Do not believe 100% of what you hear, and only 50% of what you see" and let his voice whooosh pass me and not have any processing done in my brain!... Yeah...I agree that he is an @ss. My mom is up in arms. Maybe I shouldn't tell her too much, otherwise she will launch into her protective mommy gear and get defensive in front of H... Oh..well, less than one week before H leaves for Country X.
By the way, I just got back from Country X last night (Tuesday). H called me a few times on Monday. 1st, to check if've I'm at the airport. I texted him to tell him that I've arrived. He called me later, twice. Nothing much, just asking me how Country X is etc etc and other small talk. On Tuesday, he called me in the morning to tell me about his car etc, and later just after the flight touch down. Called me again at about 9.30 pm and asked how was everything and that he's gonna play futsal tmrw and okay, he's gonna go continue with his drinking. He came back kinda late and we didn't talk at all. This morning, he was rushing to work. So, not much talk either. Boys was very cheery ...going with "Bye dad! Bye dad!" Over and over again as he was getting into the car. Hopefully, that will make him think what sweet kids he has and he owe it to them to give them a proper home!
Basically, he has been calling more these two days that I was away. Don't know about today....we'll see. I will avoid contacting him.
P/S You know...my H kept on saying that "You don't believe I haven't had s@x with her?" blah blah blah.. Somehow, my head/logic/common sense says don't believe him. And yet...something inside me tells me it may be true.. Oh well. Not gonna dwell or think about it!!!
One Day at a Time!! Stop Mentioning/Talking about OW! Zipping UP my Mouth!
