Yoyo, what a tough time. Now in theory I guess around H you should be acting "as if".. "as if", everything is just fine and he is just going away on a business trip. I know easier said than done.
And please stop thinking about what he may or may not be doing. You will do your head in.(now if only I could practice what I preach ). Hope your date goes well

Smile, it makes people wonder what you are up to!