Hey Sister Goddess...Welcome back from your vacation. Yes, you are right that all these talks are in OUR control. I guessed I DO want to test the waters. I have to say that the last two weeks was a little tooo good to be true. My friend said that maybe he had an argument with OW, that is why he is opening up to me. H did tell me that OW was upset with him for wanting to move to Country X. All and all, I supposed this backsliding incident is good in a way...to bring me back down from the clouds. To be aware that all is really not all that rosy.

I don't think I would have gotten the "real" picture without backsliding...because H has been telling his friends that he is "putting things right" and I have got feedback from his male friends that H is turning into a new leaf...so, in a way, he is not telling the truth to his friends. Perhaps he is lying to his friends so that they will SEE that he is back to his old self and that they will continue to be his friends? I don't know. I really don't know.
When I spoke to H yesterday...
Me: Why did you tell me to trust you one last time to put things right? When you are still deciding WHO you miss more and then want that person to go to Country X? These two statements are sooooo opposite. One statement assures that you ARE going to put things right. The other is like you are not sure.
H: I said what I said. I am not going back on my word.
WTF???? The second statement IS going back on his word, isn't it? I just want to go so so dark. Dark as I could be...considering he still comes home every night.

I think I will sleep with S5 tonight. Got word from my mom that he is running a fever. So, able to avoid H without concocting any excuse.

I have planned for GAL for this weekend..
Sat AM: Yoga
Sat AM: Breakfast with girlfriends
Sat PM: Perhaps a manicure/pedicure/facial ? to be confirmed
Sat PM: Dinner with Mentor and Boss
Sun AM/PM: Theme Park with the Boys
Sun PM: Friend's Baby's One-Month-Old Dinner

Really One Day at a Time!!!!
Keeping feet firmly on the Ground....