We had another R talk last night. I know that we shouldn't but it just sort of happened. Alot of the same things were said between the two of us. Mostly repeats of our previous talks. H said "Well, you said you will give me another 6 months. So, that's it. Let's not talk about it anymore. But frankly, I won't want to take that long. It will probably be about 2 months when I decide. Don't say that I am building castles in the air for you, but I probably don't want to be in Country X alone, and would want you all to come over and the boys to start school at the start of the semester in Country X. Well, I know you are gonna say that I might ask OW over to stay with me. And yes, I might. But I think everything will be okay." blah blah blah...and then he said "Well, you gave me another 6 months, and at the end of this 6 months, and I still want to go ahead and be with her knowing that she and I are incompatible, then you know I am a stupid $%#^ that's not worth it". So, as you can see, I am with H's comments. Gosh...I think he is really driving me quite nuts, isn't he? But then I have to ignore all these yoyo-ing thoughts of his and just see the baby-steps forwards. Another thing that he said : H: You know what, everyone is asking me who I will be bringing to Country X, and I told them no-one. (Grinning) I keep on thinking about what one of my coworker said about "you want to drink milk, don't have to bring the whole cow home" Me: Does that mean me as a cow as well. H: Nope.
Anyway, H then said that he had to work a bit in our home office. Gave him a peck on his forehead before I went to bed. No major drama...but I did tear abit. I have to train myself to see the positives...he was joking and cheerful. None of the anger that I constantly saw two months ago. Kept on saying that he and I have a lot in common...
This morning, H left for work really early. I was away at an event and did not log into my Messenger, and H called me about 10.30 am and said "You don't have to work? I didn't see you log into your Messenger". So, I guessed he was keeping a look-out for me in Messenger Later in the afternoon, saw that I had a missed call from H, and I returned his call. He just said that he was gonna go out for some drinks with our mutual friends (husbands part of couples). So....here goes another day....
with H's comments. Gosh...I think he is really driving me quite nuts, isn't he? But then I have to ignore all these yoyo-ing thoughts of his and just see the baby-steps forwards. Another thing that he said :
Later in the afternoon, saw that I had a missed call from H, and I returned his call. He just said that he was gonna go out for some drinks with our mutual friends (husbands part of couples). So....here goes another day.... 
