Don't know what happened to my last post...continue from last post...

I was swaying from validating to disagreeing with H. I know I know...I blew my DBING. But, I was so yoyo...

H: what is wrong? I am improving right? I am trying very hard. If things don't work out, at least I tried.
Me: You know, most of the WAS would say that. Cause they would use that as an excuse "I tried but it just didn't work out"
H: I won't say trying, then. I am saying I am forcing myself. The fact that I am going away to another country and all... Just give me some time.
Blah blah blah... I know this is against my own better judgement, but I asked about OW again...
Me: What was it that made you soooo in love?
H: I don't know.
Me: Is it something about me that made you run to her?
H: No. And I didn't run to her. I was playing a fool, and then just got attached.
Me: But what was it? Can't be just physical, so, what was it? I need to know ...
H: I don't know. I really don't know. Wouldn't you think that this is a bigger concern for me? That I don't even know why? I swear to god that you are better than her in every single way. She may be slightly slimmer - well, that's because she has never give birth, but you are better than her in every way. I swear to god and at my grandmother's grave.
Me: You are just saying that to make me feel good.
H: You know me, once I swear at my grandmother's grave, I am telling the truth.
Me: She's more attractive...that is why?
H: I said she is slimmer. Not more attractive.
Me: The sex is soooo good?
H: You want to know the truth or the lie?
Me: Of course the truth...I can take it.
H: It is definitely not the sex.
Blah blah blah.....
H: We are not that compatible. She is this and that, and I am this and that. Plus I find that her family background is miles from ours. I can tell you something...even if we don't work out, and I marry her..we will definitely divorce in a few years.
Me: So, you will marry her?
H: Didn't you hear what I said? Don't you see improvements over the last few weeks?
Me: Yes. Yes. But I just don't want you to help me build castles in the air, and then demolish it.
H: Then? WOuld you prefer me to demolish it now, and then help you build it up later?
Me: No...if you fully demolish my castle, then there is no way I want you to build it up. I will burn all our letters..
H: No no....
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