glj - Although things seem to be going the direction where he is planning for the family, I am still a bit reserved. I mean I want to be happy and all, but after what's happened, I don't know if it is true that he wants to save the M... I have to be patient and take things one day at a time. I cannot ASK him if his R with OW is over yet until I am confident that it is going that direction. There is no point in asking him to commit to M, really break-off with OW, tell me all his future plans with the family...etc etc, when he is not ready to do so. If I do it now, it will be somewhat pursuing and that may make him think that he has made a mistake. So far, I hear him talking to our ppl about future plans that included us. I really want him to ADMIT that he is wrong and sorry and all, but I really think now is not the time. I don't want to bring it up if he is not ready to talk. Also, he has not yet left his present company. So, if he feels that I am pressuring him, he might feel the need to run to her for comfort? No, H's coworker's M is not breaking up or in any trouble....it was just men's talk about "flings". He will probably leave for his new job in one month's time. Yes...I agree...it's hard work all the waayy...

Journalling...
Sunday...woke up early, and took boys over to my parent's house (S8's party was over at my parents' as they have a large garden for the party). Didn't really speak to H as he slept in. About 12 pm. Took boys to meet H at the salon for their hair cuts. After that, H went home for a shower and only came over to my parents' house at about 1.30 pm, proceeded to greet my parents. Think he was a bit scared that my dad will bite his head off. but, no, he didn't. H then set up the Star-Wars game console on the TV for the boys, and then proceeded to sit on the sofa and then commented "I think I havent' sat on this sofa for a year!" (Well, one year is abit of over-exaggeration...but it was a long time) Then H's friends came over and they chatted ...blah blah blah. The party was quite a blast..and it did make a whole big mess...Anyway, H left about 4.30 pm to go home. Said he was still jet-lagged. I got home about 7.30 pm and H - bleary eyed said that he just woke up. H then proceeded to watch the telly... and when I was ready for bed, we had a short convo:
H: Anyone talked about me?
Me: Not really.
H: Why? Are they fed-up? I am sure they did...
Me: Well, they did ask me how I was, as they were concerned about me..Just told them that you are moving to a job overseas...
H: Did they ask if she (OW) is going or not?
Me: No. They are concerned about me...no mention of her. Anyway, pls don't tell me. I don't want to know...Good Night.
I have to say that I didn't feel very happy or optimistic about our sitch at this point of the night. H then proceeded to leave our bedroom, but then turned back to give me a peck on my forehead. And all I said in return was "Good Night".

At about 4 am...H sort of gave me a weird hug...not really a real hug, more of a caress. And we ended up having s@x . I am still using the "word" s@x because we have proceeded to REAL intimacy of ML .... And then, we went back to bed..Needless to say, this morning we were at a frantic rush to get ready for work....

So far, no phone calls or texts from H yet.....

One Day at a Time.
Trying to Stay POSITIVE for ME!