Locked out from previous thread...and is continuing here.

This is gonna be a long one...

Friday, after the 1st morning telephone call to inform me that he is back in town (in my last post), H called me about half past noon. He said that he had been trying to call me a few times, but it went to the voice mail (I think the service is kinda bad at my work desk) and he wanted to ask if I wanted to go for lunch, but since he missed me, he was home already. I couldn't meet him for lunch anyway as I had an important meeting and told him so.

At lunch with my coworker, H called me again, telling me that he bought lots of CDs at his trip and for the first time for a long long time, he is sitting in our TV room and listening to his CDs and then he said "I think the old H is coming back". I calmly replied "that's good to hear.." and then our convo ended.

At about 6 pm, H called again informing me that he is out with a friend playing pool...

When I got back home, he was tired and jet-lagged and told me that he would sleep in the guest room and I said OK. No, I was not upset or anything. But he lounged a bit in our bedroom and talked abit about the contract, his trip and our sitch. It was all calm as the boys were in the room. Our convo went something like this (but not exactly in order):
H: Just to tell you that I signed the amended contract already. We'll see in 6 months, if you and the boys will join me.
Me: (Quiet or with a nod, or with an "Ok")
H: Coworker P asked if I am leaving because of the thing.
Me: Huh? You mean?
H: Yeah..quite a number of ppl know. I told him that I am not leaving because of that. Coworker P said "you've f*&ked her, blah blah blah, must go back to the family for sure. Heck, I've done it myself..blah blah blah", and then he said "hey keep quiet now" as his wife walked passed us. LOL
Me: (Quiet, nod or with an OK with a chuckle)
H: In any ways, I am not admitting to anything, ok? Told him about what I am getting blabh blah blah...

SO, H told me all this as-if I am really his friend. (Geez..but surprisingly I didn't react or get any pangs in my heart) Then he said "Hey, if at the end of the year, we are okay, maybe we all should go to New York". I rolled my eyes and rolled out of bed and off to the bathroom (was gonna shower...). And H came in and asked "Why are you so angry?". I said "I'm not!". And then started fondling and then we ended up doing all sorts in the bathroom... But unfortunately neither of us finish as S5 was shouting "Dad! Dad!" (well, boys were in my bedroom, remember??) and that was a mood killer, and worst...S5 came and knocked on the toilet door....and that was really really a mood killer. So, that was it on our session... And H went to bed in the guestroom...

But later in the night...(he was jet-lagged plus I don't know why I was awakened) he came back into the bedroom, asked if I was awake, and then came by to hug me, and then initiated ML. We did finish this time. Later, he said he was hungry and I made him an ommlette and he asked if I wanted to watch "Hitched" with him. I said "Ok" and we watched the whole movie together. It was no lovey-dovey between us. I was on the couch and he was lounging on the floor...but it was the first time that both of us actually watched a movie together without the kids. But, I think the movie is kinda funny.... It was nice.. Went to bed after the movie (separate rooms again though...)

This morning, went to YOGA and then was at my mom's. Forgot to turn my phone back from silent and had so many missed calls from H. He finally called my mom's house. Nothing much...he was just telling me about the works that need to be done on his car...

Later, we took the boys out to the mall, banked the boys into the play area. H went to look at electronics on his own...I thought he would take a while, but he called me pretty quick. Waited for him and we met up...and H continued to tell me about the type of houses that he would be renting in his new job. Our convo:
H: Whether you guys join me or not, I will rent a place big enough for us, and near to the International School.
Me: (Quiet, or a nodd or "OK")
H: Whatever it is, I am getting a pool table..
Me: You sure you will really play? Blah blah blah
H: Yes I will,... my pool table, wine chiller..parties, in my bachelor pad...
Me: (Rolling eyes again...) Well, as long as you don't get anything nasty...
H: Hey...I am a sentimental guy, I won't...?! ( can't really remember what he said)
Then somewhere along the lines...I sort of praised myself..and he teased "like me? hAre you saying that I have something good and don't even know it? " and I said "Maybe..." and kept it at that.

Then he went to get something to eat, and I was Q-ing to pay for my purchases. Met him about 5 minutes later. He ate and I just sat there waiting...and he went on about his convo with his coworker P again.
H: Coworker P asked "Can be alive to go back or not?"
Me: Huh?
H: He said "Can be alive after all this or not? F&*K her already and all, can go back to family or not?" and I told him yes. He also said "Such a good wife, very difficult to find!" (he was grinning...)
Me: You do realise you are telling your wife, you know?
H: I know! At least I am telling you.
Me: (Quiet and calm and then went on to ask him about dinner blab blah blah).
We hung around the mall for a bit longer, and then went to get the boys and headed home.

H was in our home office, printing out his contract. All four of us were in the same room..boys were helping out to pack the party packs while H was fiddling at the computer and printer. It was nice to have all four of us in a room... Then H headed out to hand-deliver the contract. He was back after an hour and complained that he couldn't find the address and only found it after calling the person.

We had a family dinner...which was again kinda nice. In fact he's in bed now..in the guest room. BOys are still all over the place. H's biological clock is all sc@#wed up!!

I know in our convos, I sound like a dumbo... either nodding, or being quiet or with the occasional OK. Really don't want to say too much.... I am still a bit cautious and approaching our sitch very very carefully. ALthough I must admit that there are POSITIVES!!

ONE DAY AT A TIME....%
Trying to Stay POSITIVE for ME!!!