If you are in physical danger you have to take steps to protect yourself Chrissy. None of the things you previously listed earlier today as traits someone would want in a man can compensate for physical abuse.
No matter how big and strong a man is physically on the outside, only a P*ssy and coward, would attack someone half their size, let alone a female. You have been down this road before you said, you said it was the deal breaker then, it should always be the deal breaker immediately. take care of yourself, be safe.
