IMOP if my H and I were to split up with the intent to work on our marriage I feel there would be a chance. My H has never experienced that part of life that creates independence and self. Our MC even agreed with this a year ago. But my H will not hear of it. It would take me out of his constent access and control. Oddly though I really no longer know for fact if he would allow himself to experience this. In my three week absense last year from the house hold he found a subsitute for my presence and never paid one bill and bounced checks all over. So maybe maybe not on that. My H is content with things as is. He did go to a few meetings regaurding his anger issues but that was short lived. My H has no desire to experience life. He is just plain content with us as is.
I am attracted to a different persoality style than my H has...there are a lot of negatives, That is me. Where my H is unassured and self doubting yet potrays egotism that lacks any form of conviction it is so transparent in its efforts that it only allow you a larger view of his lack of confidence. I am attracted to very self assured self reliant and at time egotiscal and self centered men. Now physically my H is a 8 on my scale he has the dark eyes and dark hair darker skin type muscular as all get out. He looks like a mountain man. People fear his girth he is one of the physically strongest people I have ever known.
And I do try to focus on his good, He is a reliable provider of income for our family. And he is a pretty good dad.
CeMar
Manly is all I can say.
Lil.
Do not think I ever potrayed I felt he could not do better. Look at my list of guilt one of them being my guilt that while being in this relationship it has not allowed him to find someone to love him like he craves to be loved. I have for years told my H that he deserves this. He says he wants no one but me. That is not me saying I do not feel like he does not deserve me cannot do better then me none of that. Everybody deserves someone who can love them for who they are not who they can be molded into. I have not implied other wise
