What does my H get hmmm my idea it starts as feeling like a hero. Most of the friends moms are in abusive relationships and H is sympathtic lol that is pathetic in itself when you know my sitch. How it starts I am unsure I know the same people but do not speak to them about my life nor did they speak to me about there lives so how H and them started chatting it up is beyond me. And I have never been real interested in finding out either. I am telling you I really have never been to concerned about this he can be friends with anyone he likes I really do not mind. What I do mind is he has female friends then lambast me if someone of the oppisite sex looks at me or speaks to me. I have stated before if my H had or has a affair I do not think I would be devestated by it. If it came before the kids welfare I would be furious but to me if it meant he would stop being so insanely jealous or needy of all my attention I would almost feel it would be worth it.
You know I have been in a bad place since my trip to Ohio. Everyday there has been atleast one blow up mainly him.
I know I keep going on about how he only touches me sexually. But again today as example I was walking out the door to the porch he came in the laundry room to say something to me. He had a hair on his shirt so I reached over to pick it off his shirt. He immediately took his hand and put it up under my shirt. WTF he always is doing this type of stuff and it makes me feel like [censored] I just looked down and sorta shook my head and he went off. I just let him run his mouth and went about my business. I refuse to fight anymore.
a little while later he wanted to know what my problem was why I was in a bad mood. Hello? I told him I was just tired of his inappropriate behavior towards me. He then tried to say he does not do it very often and cussed and carried on about how I am his wife so it is allowed and blah blah blah so I just went about my business yet again.
I am really frustrated right now but more that I am really tired of it all.
