It has been what 8 days since I last posted anything on my own thread. Was taking a break. lol from all my post on others threads you would not know that.
So on the relationship front ah not much changes. A few little spats her and there. Nothing major. Which is nice to have peace. Did have a minor blow out the other day about H sitting on his arse all the time. And him feeling I want things down yesterday. Had to finally tell him there are somethings that needed done yesterday. But gave up on that front to. I am sick of begging people to do what they should be doing ie putting dirty socks in the wash or dirty dishes in the sink. Ended out the month meeting the 8 time quota so chalk up another month to me meeting up to my end of the bargain. Already got two for the month lol as I marked the calender the other day H asked about last month when I said 8 he said he thinks I add extra stars to the calender. I laughed and told him I was just thinking I must have forgotten to mark a few times down. Don't know if he was being serious and don't care really. This was a promise I made to myself so if I do not keep up with it I will be letting myself down more then I will him. Thats really it on the R side of the last 8 days. D18 did surprise me the other day with a unexpected visit. Silly me started crying yet again. This time she saw it. So much for the strong mommy act aye.
Now on the Chrissy side of it I did make a great leap. Yesterday H myself and two of my kids went to the flea market on the way home I decided to make a detour and drive over to the lake where the girl who had been one of my best friends for 8 years we worked together and saw each other daily. Had not seen her but once in almost two years. I pretty much shut her out of my life durring my falling apart stage. She was not home when we got there but sat and chatted with her H until she arrived. We stayed and chatted for a hour or so more then left to come home. It was odd she did not seem happy to see me or upset that I just showed up after two years. I was not excited to see her or sorry I had came. We did not make any plans but gave each other our numbers since both of us had changed them over the two years. She is planning on moving again in the next month and her new place needs painted knowing I paint frequently she did state I could come help her I did not commit nor say I was not interested. We will see how this goes. This is part of my step 5 sorta jumping around in the goals a bit. But they were not set in stone as to order so I guess this is fine. This was a big step for me. I am sure some won't understand that but this person who was so close to me and had always thought I was such a strong totally together person witnessed a big part of my meltdown and then was totally shut out of my life for no reason. I had to swallow my pride and my embarrasment to take this first step to try to reconnect with this person and I do not know if it will work but I am willing to put myself out there. I may get rejected or we may become friends again but not to the same degree we were before and I accept those possibilitys but I will never know if I do not try.
Well gotta run for the moment. Hope everyone is having a wonderful evening. I am having my first quite evening in months all my kids have wondered off for the evening so that means all there friends are gone also . Yeah! One should be home soon but one is so much quieter then 10
