Did the comfort sex with H last night. He again did the legs sprawled out come and get me position. I decided since I find this so turnoffish I would address it. I asked is that suppose to turn me on yes pretty much pervatem words there. He acted as if he did not know what I mean. I proceeded to tell him I found nothing attractive about his come get it postition ect..
He seemed fine but I now was in a resolution mode. I told H it was his turn to get things started and decide what we should do. Yeah he was like what do you mean. I said something different position act blah blah blah. Like I started the shower thing and took charge of the postitions and the dirty movie thing ect now it was his turn. He could not think of anything. I asked a fantasy to play out anything. Nope notta. We ended up having sex the norm. He went back into happy camperland and I ended up feeling again this person is not able to have a original thought of there own. It did not put me in that bad place of the past but did again make me feel like I am swimming in a shallow pool and getting no were fast.
I should have learned last time that durring sex is not the time to solve problems or try to make points. So let me publicly slap myself on the wrist and say bad girl.
Well came here with the intent of opening that second box. But it is hot and there is a swimming pool in my back yard screaming for me to come float around in it so I guess the box and context will have to wait.
Oh yesterday after I posted and went off to float my mind started wondering to those other boxes while thinking of a drinking experience I had a wierd thought/memory. My gramps drank pabst blue ribbon he always saved me a swig at the bottom of the bottle for being fetching girl for the next bottle. I don't know why but I all of a sudden remembered when my gramps kissed you it was always slobbery open fish lip type kisses. This was his norm with everyone think he did it on purpose. My mind then flashed to my H and his habit of french kissing becoming wet. Wondering if those two thoughts came together for a reason. My mind automatically jumped to a omg I wonder if that is why the french kiss drooly thing repulses me so much. But my brain was being sun baked at the time so who knows.
Have a good day going to go bake myself somemore in the 102 degree weather!
