I'm torn between empathizing with how you feel, and terrified that it could be me. We've been having our problems for a few years now, and have now gone more than a year & 1/2 without any sex at all - but trying to imagine that continuing for 10 more years scares me to death.
Does your W know about the massages, and what they mean to you? How does she feel about them? I have caught myself on more than one occassion considering going to get one, but would feel guilty about it (and would have a hard time explaining where the $ went to, if I didn't discuss it with my W first).
Is your W doing anything to address the situation, or is it just "the way it is"? If not, what do you think your long-term outlook is (although it sounds like you're already at "long-term")?
