Looking backward but only to move forward FIVE

[sage]

Slowly -- How do you feel when I tell you it's 34 now??? In many ways it has flown by though like with other things, there are days that seem to drag on forever!

My dr. gave me new guidelines yesterday -- I can be up and about so long as I don't "go crazy". H and I went out to dinner for the first time in months last night! It was wonderful, but very scary, to be out and about with him. I'm willing to welcome our baby whenever but I could REALLY use some more time...to reconnect with h, to get things settled at work, to get some diapers from the store (sort of kidding about this but we have nothing in the kid's room!)and to get my head wrapped around being a mom! Yowza.

Lisa -- You have my admiration! I can't imagine being away from home base with 2 kids during bedrest! That must have been an amazing ordeal.

Things at home are good. h continues to be extremely understanding and supportive. Despite my new freedoms he's still downstairs making me breakfast. I think we're both of the mindset that less movement by Sage is still a good thing.

I'm still feeling somewhat insecure, though, about what this 9+ weeks has done...feeling badly about being a "burden" about not meeting h's needs (emotional, physical), about being wrapped up in me and my own thoughts, etc. Of course, resonating behind ALL of this is the thought "Doubting, stressing, ruminating, is probably a bigger problem than the bedrest itself" so I am working hard at changing my mindset.

Sage