Looking backward but only to move forward FIVE

[sage]

Posting yesterday morning helped me to keep DB'ing in my mind all day. I miss posting and journaling and also knowing the sitchs of folks here. I'm not sure how to eke more time out for the BB but I do think I'm going to (selfishly) post on my own thread a bit more often.

I said that I kept DB'ing in my mind all day yesterday but it wasn't a great day mentally -- I had something to do for work, about 5 hours of work that I resented doing, and ended up feeling impatient with the world (and h) for most of the day and then being pissed at myself as a result. I don't think I overtly displayed my impatience but if I could have crawled into a hole and just been by myself, I would have.

Meanwhile, h had work to do that was FAR more important and challenging than mine AND he has an EXTREMELY stressful event today that is worrying him to no end and he showed not one hint of distance or impatience with me. I know, I know, he has his own foibles but taking his stress out on me isn't one of them -- I corner the market on that.

So, today the watchword is PATIENCE -- I'm going to look for ways to practice it. I'm sure my morning commute will provide many opportunities.

Sage