Has been awhile x! I miss your wisdom. How are things going with W? What happened after her weekend away with friends? I am on thebiggest roller coaster this week. Was working on not contacting H yesterday. Was tough but got through it. H called and wanted to go someplace with us and actually said that and asked to go. Took it as a pos. and ran! H has seen OW but doesn't seem as much. H shows signs of still caring but is so hesitant. Afraid if he shows them he will get hurt all over and keeps his distance physically also. Tries not to sit right next to me. Always to the side and in full view. I just keep plugging along. Still cannot believe H doesn't think he is having an affair. Not sure what he would call it!! Just so thankful to have friends on here to be able to vent with who actually know what each other is going through to some degree.
Seems like the summer is slipping away and will be gone before I know it. Was thinking about holidays and what will be happening with kids and was not a good road to take. Have a few days to keep my distance and let H "miss" me a bit. I sometimes think I am too accessible. I just keep thinking once the "honeymoon" period is over things won't be as rosey with the OW. No everyday stress, kids, bills, juggling schedules, etc...
Things can never go back. They can only forge ahead on a better route. You have changed and become a better person and your W will soon see that. Almost like a lightbulb has been lit and you see things in such a different perspective. I think trying the missing idea for a bit here and there makes them realize what you have to offer them. Also think by having a history and knowing some of their responses and needs and acting on them surprises them and is a plus. Just knowing what they expect and want in small ways is a nice baby step for us! Hope today is a good one for you and I! c
