(((((HP)))))) I hate that feeling that they are doing it just to cheer you up. I got that today too after mentioning that I felt like my welcome home was less than lukewarm. Anyway, I am thinking this time it is my turn to grow. Unfortunately, I have been given no roadmap. Seems the LD's at least have that, but perhaps that is only my perception because it is what I want.
Anyway, I still envy your progress and I think you will pull yourself out of the funk. Remember what I said before about going through periods of disillusionment? As you get better with the communication (whch you have), I think you'll find those periods will get shorter.
--your friend GGB. (why is it we as a group here seem to hit ups and downs more or less in unison?)