Honey... I had an experience like that not too long ago. My parents found a tape of my college graduation and put it on. It was so hard to watch...I was so full of warmth and effusiveness and just watching H and I interact...well it was overwhelmingly sad. I remember JJ posting about watching her wedding video with her H and had more of a sentimental, weren't we young and naive, reaction. Mine was more like shock: I had forgotten how happy I was. It took a few days to shake the down feeling.
Now, you have been with me from the get-go on this board and we have both made a lot of progress, but as I have said on my newest thread, I can get so enthusiastic and willful that I think I can bring us back to taste our past. I accept where I am in life but have captured a childlike optimism which personally, I feel is a good thing. But there is something about my H, something in his manner ( I can't really put it into words) that has shown me he has moved on, and it's a losing battle to try to get this piece of his spirit back.
I love him and will move on with him and try to keep what I can going. We're just setting sail to a new and different place, that's all.
