Quote: I don't have the confidence you do this eve that the A will end. He speaks in a way to loving tone with OW. He is not the type to love and leave easily.
Sometimes my confidence is bravado. There are times I belive it will burn out, and times I dont. But I continue to tell myself it will - and I get stronger in my resolve.
I worry because my W attatches very easily, lets go hard, and I am sure cannot belive I could forgive an A. I am sure that she feels that (EA/PA/or not) things have gone to far to ever come back. All I can do is wait untill she allows me to first be her friend again, then be here when she needs me. If that ever happens, then we can begin the walk back to us. The pain is waiting, and trying not to think of what might be happening with her right now. But I must continue to belive our M can be saved, and continue to DB as well as I can. I cannot give up on her as she is giving up on me. It is my turn to bear the weight of our R for a while - she has for a long time. Now she is not. Will she just enjoy the weight being lifted and move on, or get the rest from it and find the strength to come back? I cannot know, I can just wait.
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