I guess the reason I think it's funny is because I was always offering to fix him breakfast, he's just not a breakfast person. Our big deal was that he wanted supper on the table when he walked in the door at night. That I did. And it was always a home cooked, well balanced meal. Even when we were dieting, I made sure it was a yummy, filling meal.

So, for my aunt to say that it was because I didn't make him breakfast was funny to me. My girlfriends would look at me like I had a third eye when I would say that frozen pizza was not an evening meal. Cold sandwiches and soup? nope. It was always fresh, home cooked, well thought out meal. Since he's been gone, the girls could care less and mac and cheese, hot dogs and frozen pizzas are par for the course. Funny huh?

My Auntie would have died if she knew it was because I wasn't putting out enough. He he he. I think I just have a big hang up about sex being naughty, and married women with children are not supposed to be naughty. Maybe our sex life would be better if we were divorced and forced to have clandestine meetings and sex in the bed of the pickup truck. Gee, that sounds like fun.

I am so going crazy these days. It's going on a year and if you want to appreciate something, give it up for a while and see what happens. I'm thinking of changing my name to Melhorny...maybe that's a bit much. Just Mel.

Later

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