My sitch: M 1.5 yrs, seperated after 9 mos. Back together after DB'ing for almost 4 months. I relapsed and let my low self esteem creep back and H ran again. He has been gone for 6 days, have not seen or spoken to him for 5 days. We were back together almost 6 months this last time. I realize most of our problems are over my issues of trust.
Last time I suggested we "date" so he could see I was trying to change. It worked out well and he did return. This time he wants nothing to do with me and says no matter what I do, it's over. My MIL totally supports his decision, which is a nail in my coffin, so to speak.
Do I even stand a chance by going dark? It is what I have decided because seeing him would hurt even more than the agony I feel now. Also, he promised he would never run again, so there goes more of my trust. I am wary and angry at him.
I am so torn...at one point I miss him so badly and want to see him but again, I don't think i'm ready, either. I want to have hope but I know it could turn out for the worst. I am not ready to do this again but what else do I have to do? I suppose I am reluctant because I always end up being hurt. I want this R and our M to work, but I am sceptical on his part.
Please advise...am I doing the right thing by being dark?
