I had another melt down last night (privately - my H wasn't around). Anyway, I still have no peace with staying with my H. Although, I am controling my anger, I guess maybe I'm now in the grieving period. I'm tired of crying, I'm loosing weight like mad and I'm not feeling well at all. I'm trying to take care of myself but I'm finding it difficult. I have no appetite, I can't sleep and I'm becoming very unhealthly. I have to make a decision about staying or going otherwise I will be in the hospital very soon. As a matter of fact, I almost drove myself to the emergency room last night - I have an extreme back ache. I feel like I'm reallly going to crash and burn very, very soon. How do I make a decision? How do I know it's the right decision?
