Things are getting better. I've decided to really try to make my M work, however, my H is now pulling away. Understandably so because of my constant angry outbursts. He has had enough and I'm not sure at all that he wants the M back. With that said, I went to dinner with a friend and he called 4 times, text messaged me and went by my apartment. So I guess even though he says he doesn't want it, I think down deep inside he does. Anyway, I told him I'm ready to come home so let me know when you're ready and he said okay. By the way, he changed the locks on the house. MY HOUSE, I alone own it, but when I found this out, I had no reaction but I'll tell you all here and not to my H, it really made me mad. I'm trying to control my anger and I think I'm becoming a little better at it. I have a long way to go, but I have chosen to control it better which is half the battle.
Can someone expaliln to me the "as if" concept - I couldn't find it in the DR book.
